Depressive lack thereof
When I was 19 years old, suicidal thoughts consumed me. One clear memory—I came back from class and threw away my knives because I was afraid of what I would do to myself with them. During this time, I thought…
Who you are VS What you can be
Today I come to speak about the curse of knowing yourself too much. The paralyzing reluctance to mistake anxiety for intuition and intuition for anxiety. The fear of responding to perceived threats because you can’t quite place the motivation behind…
Possibilities, endings and new beginnings
I spent this past weekend on the road shaking hands with strangers while carrying an unsettling inner struggle. I kept thinking about the idea of being with one person for whatever particular reason. For the life I am living, for…
Being a fool on the playground of savagery
A reoccurring struggle for a group of species is negotiating the need to depend on each other amidst conflict. Horrible as it may be, conflict and disparity maintain internal balance and self-respect. Conflict and disparity also separates and taunts. The…
Wearing my contradictions in a contradicting world
Lately I have been battling the contradictions that mark my life. I have been fighting the push and pull discourses and wisdoms that speak on the way of life. I find myself desperate to make the right choice. Popular or…
Self-perception with Martha Graham
Yesterday I found myself in the pits of the internet following the life of Martha Graham. Born May 11, 1894 and died April 1, 1991, Martha Graham was an American modern dancer and choreographer who danced and taught for over 70…
Freud’s levels of the mind and defence mechanisms
When Freud talked about the three levels of the mind, he attested that the unconscious, preconscious, and conscious mind can be in conflicts that lead to anxiety, which leads to the use of defence mechanisms. Essentially, this means that your…
How to open up to receive love
Some time back someone sent me an ex’s picture for laughs. A few days later, I caught myself consumed by the sentiments surrounding our break-up. And I know this was not about that ex specifically because I also caught myself…
What you mean is difference
All couples fight. All friends fight. Family fights. Fighting is okay. Or so we say. I have two best friends, and I have never fought with either. I used to think about what this unspoken understanding we have for each…